I''ve seen them kneel with baited breath for the ritual I''ve watched this experience raise them to pseudo higher levels I''ve watched them leave their families in pursuit of your nirvana I''ve seen them coming to line up from Switzerland and America How long will this take baba How long have we been sleeping Do you see me hanging on to every word you say How soon will I be holy How much will this cost guru How much longer ''til you completely absolve me I''ve seen them give their drugs up in place of make shift altars I''ve heard them chanting kali kali frantically I''ve heard them rotely repeat your teachings with elitism I''ve seen them boasting robes and foreign sandalwood beads How long will this take baba How long have we been sleeping Do you see me hanging on to every word you say How soon will I be holy How much will this cost guru How much longer ''til you completely absolve me I''ve seen them over looking god in their own essence I''ve seen their upward

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind I can withhold like it''s going out of style I can be the moodiest baby and you''ve never met anyone who''s as negative as I am sometimes I am the wisest woman you ever met I am the kindest soul with whom you''ve connected I have the bravest heart that you ever seen and you''ve never met anyone who''s as positive as I am sometimes You see everything You see every part You see all my light And you love my dark You dig everything Of which I''m ashamed There''s not anything to which you can''t relate And you''re still here I blame everyone else not my own part taking My passive aggressiveness can be devastating I''m the most gorgeous woman that you''ve ever known And you never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes You see everything You see every part You see all my light And you love my dark You dig everything Of which I''m ashamed There''s not anything to which you can''t relate And you''re still here What I resist

I had no choice but to hear you You stated your case time and again I thought about it You treat me like I''m a princess I''m not used to liking that You ask how my day was You''ve already won me over inspite of me Don''t be alarmed if I fall head over feet Don''t be surprised if I love you For all that you are I couldn''t help it It''s all your fault Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole You''re so much braver than I gave you credit for That''s not lip service You''ve already won me over in spite of me Don''t be alarmed if I fall head over feet Don''t be surprised if I love you For all that you are I couldn''t help it It''s all your fault You are the bearer of unconditional things You held your breath and the door for me Thanks for your patience You''re the best listener that I''ve ever met You''re my best friend Best friend with benefits What took me so long I''ve never felt this healthy before I''ve never wanted something rational I am aware now, bom I am

How ''bout getting off of these antibiotics How ''bout stopping eating when I''m filled up How ''bout them transparent dangling carrots How ''bout that ever elusive kudo Thank you India Thank you terror Thank you disillusionment Thank you frailty Thank you consequence Thank you thank you silence How ''bout how good it feels to finally forgive you How ''bout grieving it all one at a time Thank you India Thank you terror Thank you disillusionment Thank you frailty Thank you consequence Thank you thank you silence The moment I let go of it was The moment I got more than I could handle The moment I jumped off of it was The moment I touched down How ''bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out How ''bout not equating death with stopping Thank you India Thank you providence Thank you disillusionment Thank you nothingness Thank you clarity Thank you thank you silence yeah yeah ahh ooh ah oh oh ah oh oooh yeah

That I would be good Even if I did nothing That I would be good Even if I got the thumbs down That I would be good If I got and stayed sick That I would be good Even if I gained ten pounds That I would be fine Even if I went bankrupt That I would be good If I lost my hair and my youth That I would be great If I was no longer queen That I would be grand If I was not all knowing That I would be loved Even when I''m not myself That I would be good Even when I am overwhelmed That I would be loved Even when I was fuming That I would be good Even if I was clinging That I would be good Even if I lost sanity That I would be good Whether with or without you haaaa haaaa hoooo ooooaa ooooaa hoohoo

Ooh oooh ooh ooh I recommend gettin'' your heart trampled onto anyone yeah oh I recommend walkin'' around naked in your living room yeah Swallow it down what a jagged little pill It feels so good swimmin'' in your stomach Wait until the dust setles You live you learn you love you learn You cry you learn you lose you learn You bleed you learn you scream you learn Oh ho I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone I certainly do do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at anytime Feel free Throw it Down The caution blocks you from the wind Hold it up to the rays You wait and see when the smoke clears You live you learn you love you learn You cry you learn you lose you learn You bleed you learn you scream you learn Uhhuh Hey Yeah hi yi Yeah Aya ah ay ah Yeah ah yah yah ah Yeah Wear it out the way a three year old would do Melt it down your gonna have to eventually anyway The fire trucks are comin'' up around the bend You live, you learn you love you

I want you to know That I''m happy for you I wish nothing but The best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me? Would she go down on you in a theatre? Does she speak eloquently? And would she have your baby? I''m sure she''d make a really excellent mother ''Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn''t able to make it enough for you To be open wide No And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you''d hold me Until you died? And I''m here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It''s not fair to deny me Of the cross I bare that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know You seem very well Things look peaceful I''m not quite as well I thought you should know Did you forget about me Mister Duplicity I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face How quickly I was replaced And are you thinking of me when you fuck her? The love that you gave that we made Wasn''t able to make it enough for you